| what |
[Jul. 7th, 2009|03:52 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  jubilant | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | micheal jackson | ] |
i had no idea that people still used this .. add me on myspace.. www.myspace.com/heartshapedandboxed |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 25th, 2008|06:34 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  flirty | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | marilyn | ] |
There,s something cold and blank behind her smile
She's standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away"
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself
Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls
(coma):
"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 19th, 2008|05:34 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  worried | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | the darkness | ] |
at around 1030 last night ..... everything had changed.
hes gotta understand that i love him. & he needs help. & its not something to be ashmed of.
he could never dissapoint me.
i hope he gets better. & realizes hes a much better person without the bullshit.
iloveyou.
see you in 21 days. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 18th, 2008|03:49 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  numb | ] |
Dreaming comes so easily
Cause it's all that I've known
True love is a fairytale
I'm damaged, so how would I know?
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm shamed and I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
Healing comes so painfully
And it chills to the bone
Won't let anyone get close to me
I'm damaged, as I'm sure you know
I'm scared and I'm alone
I'm shamed and I need for you to know
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
There's only for my soul
And undo this fear
Forgiveness for a man
Who was stronger
I was just a little girl
But I can't look back
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 18th, 2008|03:43 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | nervous | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | slipknot | ] |
i dont want to feel it all over again. i just want to be happy alone first. i wanna prove that to myself.
i dont want to depend on someone else to make me happy. i just need to be alone for a little bit longer. till im satisfied with myself. & then i can be satisfied with someone i care about. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 18th, 2008|08:47 am] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  drained | ] |
i even freaked myself out last night. ididnt think i was capable of doing such things. :)
-[-your a really great friend.
& i miss courtney. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 15th, 2008|01:14 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  working | ] |
wow the stories were endless last night. haha.
amber i love you. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 13th, 2008|02:50 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  cheerful | ] |
ian thorely is a really good snowboarder. i admire him.
i remember going to mshs with him years ago...
then he moved and is now a professional snowboarder making it on tv.
i watched his last run on tv and he was amazing.
i didnt know him that well but i hope the best for him and hope one day i become as good as he is.
check him out on youtube!
<3you |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2008|05:49 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | rollin | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | too short | ] |
a midget with long red curly hair
60 and 80 dollar bills
house full of people
the chase
the chairty collector who only wants 1 dollar bills ??
the basement
the classroom settiing
the clear body bags full of pot which i cannot open
& then the smoking of brocoli.
what next!? hah! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2008|05:46 pm] |
| [ | Location |
| | parents house | ] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | rob zombie | ] |
& given the chance to do it all over again ....
:) |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2008|05:45 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | content | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | tim mcgraw | ] |
You always had an eye for things that glittered
But I was far from bein made of gold
I dont know how that I scraped up the money
I just never could quite tell you no
Just like when you were leavin amarillo
To take that new job in tennessee
And I quit mine so we could be together
I cant forget the way you looked at me
Chorus:
Just to see you smile
Id do anything
That you wanted me to
And all is said and done
Id never count the cost
Its worth all thats lost
Just to see you smile
When you said time was all you really needed
I walked away and let you have your space
Cuz leavin didnt hurt me near as badly
As the tears I saw rollin down your face
And yesterday I knew just what you wanted
When you came walkin up to me with him
So I told you that I was happy for you
And given the chance Id lie again
(repeat chorus)
Id do anything
That you wanted me to
And all is said and done
Id never count the cost
Its worth all thats lost
Just to see you smile |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2008|04:05 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | touched | ] |
you know
you might have problems
but i have them just the same
& i love you for them.
iloveyouamber. :) |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 11th, 2008|04:48 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  crazy | ] |
i feel like im on a roller coaster of emtions .... HELP!
HAH! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 5th, 2008|06:37 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | fiona apple | ] |
Ive been a bad bad girl,
Ive been careless with a delicate man.
And its a sad sad world,
When a girl can break a boy
Just because she can.
Dont you tell me to deny it,
Ive done wrong and I want to
Suffer for my sins.
Ive come to you cause I need
Guidance to be true
And I just dont know where I can begin.
What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.
Heaven help me for the way I am.
Save me from these evil deeds.
Before I get them done.
I know tomorrow brings the consequence
At hand.
But I keep livin this day like
The next will never come.
Oh, help me, but dont tell me
To deny it.
Ive got to cleanse myself.
Of all these lies till Im good
Enough for him.
Ive got a lot to lose and im
Bettin high
So Im beggin you before it ends
Just tell me where to begin.
What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.
Let me know the way
Before theres hell to pay.
Give me room to lay the law and let me go.
Ive got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So, what would an angel say?
cause the devil wants to know.
What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love.
What I need is a good defense
cause Im feelin like a criminal.
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I sinned against
Because he was all I ever knew of love. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 5th, 2008|03:10 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | ipod | ] |
i feel like a completly different person.
last night was just what i needed.
& thank you heidi. :o)
..time to pick up the peices! |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 24th, 2007|04:24 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | relieved | ] |
last night ... it had seemed like all my troubles faded away
the only thing i could bring myslef to think about were the memories i have made.
the people that ive met & how they have made impacts on my life that i could never forget. and how i have affected them in return.
even for the people who have hurt me the most... i couldnt bring myself to hate you. not right then and there. not at that moment.
because each person that i come across leaves a part of them with me. and i love that feeling. i love meeting people. even if its just those 5min introductions ... and then their gone. i could tell that there was more there.
& no matter what these people do with their lives and how they turn out ... doesnt matter to me. i love them. each person ive learned from and have some kind of respect for.
& this... as i sat in up in my room with friends around me... this was all i could think about.. looking at each one of their faces with a smile on my own. it was like everything had slowed down for me to finally realize...
these are the people who i want around me. and that i want to go throught life with and be there for.
& for those few hours i had never felt better in my life. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 21st, 2007|06:01 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  excited | ] |
Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life
Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold , I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no, no, no, no, no
Well, I've never prayed,
But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind , I feel free now
But the airwaves are clean and there's nobody singing to me now. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 17th, 2007|08:07 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | mischievous | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | fergie | ] |
Evan: You could always subscribe to a site like Perfect Ten. I mean that could be anything, it could be a bowling site.
Seth: Yeah, but it doesn't actually show dick going in which is a huge concern.
Evan: Right, I didn't realize that.
Seth: Besides, have you ever seen a vagina by itself?
Evan: No.
Seth: [shakes his head] Not for me.
hah. what the fuck. ??
greaaat movie! :D |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 17th, 2007|02:04 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | burrr | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | i dont wanna be in love | ] |
"chapter 9"
........ |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 15th, 2007|12:12 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  dirty | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | instant karma | ] |
my trip to esky? ... turned out to be more then i expected it to. i think i had a lot of peope worried. when really it was just a random decision i made. ??? ooopps.
time to go home. ...
buuuut i did get a lot of steve's artwork.
excited to hang it up! :o) |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 2nd, 2007|09:32 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | koRn | ] |
ithinkimstartingtolikethisboy...
ohuh.
&hescute :o) |
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| ahhh love this song!! |
[Nov. 29th, 2007|09:56 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | bossy | ] |
Well I don't know why I came here tonight,
I got the feeling that something ain't right,
I'm so scared in case I fall off my chair,
And I'm wondering how I'll get down the stairs,
Clowns to the left of me,
Jokers to the right, here I am,
Stuck in the middle with you.
Yes I'm stuck in the middle with you,
And I'm wondering what it is I should do,
It's so hard to keep this smile from my face,
Losing control, yeah, I'm all over the place,
Clowns to the left of me, Jokers to the right,
Here I am, stuck in the middle with you.
Well you started out with nothing,
And you're proud that you're a self made man,
And your friends, they all come crawlin,
Slap you on the back and say,
Please.... Please.....
Trying to make some sense of it all,
But I can see that it makes no sense at all,
Is it cool to go to sleep on the floor,
'Cause I don't think that I can take anymore
Clowns to the left of me, Jokers to the right,
Here I am, stuck in the middle with you.
Well you started out with nothing,
And you're proud that you're a self made man,
And your friends, they all come crawlin,
Slap you on the back and say,
Please.... Please.....
Well I don't know why I came here tonight,
I got the feeling that something ain't right,
I'm so scared in case I fall off my chair,
And I'm wondering how I'll get down the stairs,
Clowns to the left of me,
Jokers to the right, here I am,
Stuck in the middle with you,
Yes I'm stuck in the middle with you,
Stuck in the middle with you. |
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| snap shot |
[Nov. 29th, 2007|01:58 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  high | ] |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 29th, 2007|12:33 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | hyper | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | blow job betty | ] |
downloads....
bob marley
daft punk
slipknot
mudvayne
ben harper
too short
orgy
the misfits
sublime
Tech 9 :o) |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 18th, 2007|03:03 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | fucked | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | the darkness | ] |
I am a closed book, Yet there must be a key. I just have to learn how to use it. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 4th, 2007|04:48 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  peaceful | ] |
Childhood living is easy to do
The things you wanted I bought them for you
Graceless lady you know who I am
You know I cant let you slide through my hands
Wild horses couldnt drag me away
Wild, wild horses, couldnt drag me away
I watched you suffer a dull aching pain
Now you decided to show me the same
No sweeping exits or offstage lines
Could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind
Wild horses couldnt drag me away
Wild, wild horses, couldnt drag me away
I know I dreamed you a sin and a lie
I have my freedom but I dont have much time
Faith has been broken, tears must be cried
Lets do some living after we die
Wild horses couldnt drag me away
Wild, wild horses, well ride them some day
Wild horses couldnt drag me away
Wild, wild horses, well ride them some day |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2007|12:32 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | bouncy | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | james blunt | ] |
hah i love my roomies. LOVE THEM!
...walk in on them yesterday , which happened to be chris's 29th, all bug-eyed and waiting for me.
ahhhh the rest of the night was up to us. :)
& ended in our favor. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 7th, 2007|04:34 pm] |
start my new job monday! <3
8am- 5
& my boss is pretty cute. :o)
ahhh love it!
this is gonna be a rough weekend!
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[Sep. 7th, 2007|09:55 am] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | full | ] |
When I passed you in the doorway
You took me with a glance
Should have took that last bus home
But I asked you for a dance
Now we were steady to the pictures
I always get chocolate stains on my pants
Father says "he's going crazy"
Says I'm livin' in a trance,
Dancing in the moonlight
It's caught me in it's spotlight,
It's alright, it's alright, the moonlight
This long, hot summer night
It's three o'clock in the morning, I'm on the streets again
Disobeyed another warning, Shoulda been home by ten
Now I stay out 'till Sunday, I have to say I stayed with friends
It's a habit worth forming, It's a means to justify the end
Dancing in the moonlight
It's caught me in it's spotlight,
It's alright, it's alright, the moonlight
This long, hot summer night
I'm walking home
Last bus is long gone |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 17th, 2007|05:39 pm] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | sad | ] |
i remember him liking me
how everyone knew and i was totally clueless
i was about thirteen when we first met
him being about seventeen..
met ofcourse through my older brother who was also seventeen at the time..
rory perkins
my best guy friend..
i liked him so much
but never like that
& i never suspected anything
he came over on my sixtenth birthday just to knock on my door and hand me a flower..
i felt loved
three years the crush must have gone on
& i never knew
i fell in love with someone else
moved out of my parents house
and lost touch with my best friend
all of them it seemed
but now .. almost two years later im single...
two weeks single that is.
i saw perkins two nights ago &
he was with his girlfriend & his new baby boy.
im not aloud to see him because his girlfriend hates me
she knows that perkins used to like me alot and holds that against me.. and were not aloud to hangout.
i miss him
i keep thinking about "What IF"
what if i went out with him.. instead of dan?
would i be single right now?
i bet he would have been great.
i dont know
i guess we live only a couple streets apart
but ... she has him tied to her finger and uses him.. MY BESTFRIEND! he deserves better.
even better then me.
i just wish i could have done something ... more for him...
i feel like if i were with him from the begining
he would of never met "her" and wouldnt feel like shit right now.
i wish him all the happiness in the world, dear friend.
i love you. i miss you. goodbye.
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 4th, 2007|03:17 am] |
| [ | Location |
| | wisconsin | ] |
| [ | Feeling |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | audioslave | ] |
when i first came to this island
that i called by own name
i was happy in this fortress,
in my exile i remained
but the hours grew so empty
and the ocean sent her waves
in the figure of a women
and she pulled me out to sea.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 19th, 2007|11:21 am] |
| [ | Feeling |
| |  irritated | ] |
i cant believe his mom fuckin lied to me...
i hate her.
she needs to accept the fact that she is almost 50 and needs to start acting like it. rather than acting like a baby and bringing highschool drama into everyone's life.
gahhhhhhhh! she pisses me off!
ive seriously been considering not even wanting to know anyone from his family anymore.
..whatever |
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